Unfair

I thinking of taking up squash. Have to start finding people who play that

Life

Today is a day to be marked in my calender. For everyone, there is a so call unlucky day and today is my turn.
I am left "phoneless" by the staff at Nokia, forgot to take my water bottle after class and received a offline msg by Alxin that contained the F word. I hate it when people use vulgarities on others. I do not mind if poeple just let out a "fuck" or "chibye" to express their unhappiness but I hate people who use these words on other people. So imagine when I open my email and found another similar like email by alxin. We make up later during lecture.
Then at the bus stop,I found the girl that I really like there and I decided to "trash" things out with her at the bus stop which she aligned. I got turned down flat. Funny thing is I don't or rather I do not have any wish for her to be my GF yet. I just want to know her better and for her to know me better. Apparently, she was feeling uncomfortable knowing I like her. She ask me how can I like her when I barely know her and we keep talking in circles.
I don't know why,all this while, the girls that I like are all based on first impression. Up until now, I have quite a few crushes. Actually not a lot, about 5. However, those that I like them enough to let them know or I am sure that I like them is 2-ying2 and mic.
I hate to be pesky, that is so not my life philosophy. I don't know if she will read this,I don't know whether she would or not and honestly, I do not know if I wish for her to see or not.
I like her because her face becomes red very easily. That was the impression she left on me when we first met in class. Second time, when I saw her, I knew in my heart that I really like her. It is hard to describe beat I can describe is that there is just this messenge going into my brain and confirming to me that,"yup,it is positive that you like her." Third time I saw her, she was wearing a minnie mouse t-shirt and I kinda like it. And I noticed she got nice hands.I can go on and on but my point is,everytime I saw her,I found something about her that I like. I like it the way she speaks, how she laugh until the rice inside her mouth got spitted into my bowl, the way she speak chinese, her short hair and when she told me her weekend are for her family, her being in the band.She is also very hardworking and she keeps a dog, the way she walks...If possible, I still want to know more about her.
Having said that, I respect her every decision. I don't like to force people and I can't. I admit I was being pesky recently to her,sorry about that. When she send me that fateful sms, I actually knew what is going on,but me being me...how to you call that?Never give up until all is lost?
I ask her if we could still be friends, she said yes. I should be glad but her meaning of friends mean hi-bye friends. That is not "friends" to me.
I having mixed feeling right now...
I am happy for falling for such a wonderful girl.
I am sad because everything had ended.
I had this regret that we may not ever be friends that can go out for a meal and talk anymore.
I have no resentment about letting her go.
I am at peace because I learnt something about and it makes me more mature.
I come to understand that her being happy doesn't make me so but it doesn't matter.
Lastly, I want to thank all my frineds who had been rooting for me all this while,Alvin,Tony,zhilian,yongjin,chee xin and so on.
I still remember what happens 5 yrs ago when I give up on my first love due to my immaturity. I am still not mature enough but I am learning. Today,30th oct 2007 is a day which I will look back and smile in the future. A 2rd grade man drown his sorrow in beer,while a thrid grade man drown his sorrow in bed with a woman which he doesn't feel for. For me,I will just continue to walk on the journey of life.It is said that I am not suitable for love...could it be so?

went for a concert last nite,it was..enjoyable..went with ZL,long time since we went out together, as in only him and me.
I always wanted to go for one,the concert,I mean. But, I just couldn't find anyone to go with. After that, went orchard to meet up with DJ and TY for dinner. We had japanese food and the katsu don was quite a disappointment. Apparently, everyone is getting cranky and stress recently and that include me.I can see that it is on the way home.That exclude ZL. ZL is like the opposite of me.He is super patient and I am super not patient.Frrankly speaking,I admire him for his patient and hardworkingness.
I always hated people who whine about life but it seems like I becoming one.Maybe I just vexed by the fact that I having writer block for a whole week, maybe I worried about my CAP.
argh,i dunno what I am writing anymore...
p/s:waiting to review my S/U

Nick send me this which I think is quite funny but I think it is very true for like 80% of the students?they suppose to move but I can seem to make them move,you have to click on them one by one...sorry

New school semester:

At the first week:



At the second week:



Before the mid-term test:



During the mid-term test:



After the mid-term test:



Once know the final exam schedule:



7 days before final exam:



6 days before final exam:



5 days before final exam:



4 days before final exam:



3 days before final exam:



2 days before final exam:



1 day before final exam:



A night before final exam:



1 hour before final exam:



During the final exam:



Once walk out from the exam hall:

After the final exam, during the holiday:

Whenever I take 188 to school in the afternoon, I will keep a look out when the bus reaches bukit batok block 108.Why? There is this coffee shop there that seems to be crowded with old ah peks. Strange is that, only ah peks and no aunties or any others. Best guess would be they are retired ah peks with nowhere to go and spend their time. I really wonder what they are thinking in their mind, or are they?
When I am old and retired, wonder if I would be like them...

First 2 eps of Gundam 00 look to be promising..If nothing else goes wrong,I think that it will be another well loved series.

Recently,I havn't been as patient as I used to be for my friends, even the girls. I think that it is because the same few people always irriate me in the same way repeatedly that I just can't be bothered anymore.
I know that it is just part of their character but I can't show the same magnimousity(dunno spelling) anymore.Hmm,need to more posititve.

Little bro borrow fifa 2007 from his friends and it was quite fun playing. Problem is both of us don't watch socccer. What I know about soccer is only limited to chelsea,man u and liverpool and addias sponsor liverpool. What little bro know about soccer is that a soccer boot model call predator and he happen to have the normal version of it.

8 days, erhmm no,it's actually 8 flips

Was queueing up at shop n save yesterday to pay for just a box of chocolate and nachos at the "express", 5 items and below(the uncle in front obviously do not care)counter, when out of boredom took a quick glimpse at the magazine section.

As usual, I will look at the covers of FHM and maxim, trying to guess or recognise the cover girls (these days, I couldn't recognise the cover girl anymore,I used to be able to) then, I saw 8 days. The last time I remember that I brought a copy of 8days was like 2yrs ago?Strangely,I thought to myself...Why not just buy one?
Even though the cover was Jacelyn tay in fur(I never really like her,whether she is in fur or not, sorry), I took one copy and pay.

Reach home,flip though the magazine in like 2mins?(I always flip from the back to the front). Flip again,ohhh, there a website about people taking funny pictures of shit. Flip again, there actually a section on horoscope. flip again, okay,I'll just read next week drama's spoilers.Flip again,nothing happens.I been flipping it for like 8times already up to now...
Now, why did I brought it in the first place?

P/s:back to my study for tomorrow's test.

had a crazy weekend...this is how it went...

last thu- financial econ assignment,went back home study for friday test.
fri evening - nano world test,went back home study for saturday test, before which I went sembawang to pick up my 881 ost 2
sat morning - genes and society test, then went back home to study and think about proposal.
sun - study for monday's test, map out the skeleton of my proposal.
mon - macro econ 2 test and due date for fin.econ proposal

So,today kinda feel like friday to me cause things start to cool down.But, there still a test on friday, phew.And I got 4 term papers due early next month...

What I really want now is a nice afternoon at GJ drinking latte with whoever that I can have a nice long meaningless chat with...

P/S: kono seikai ni kami ga inai...by Setsuna F. Seiei, pilot of gundam exia

Stong and weak

To me,the most difficult thing to learn,to know and to master is the relationship between people or rather,between 2 living creatures?

The only people who can hurt you(emotionally) are the one that you care about,
thus,the one whom you may hurt,intentionally or not, are also the one who really cares about you.

few are strong
but without any support
they become the weak.

many are weak,
but with love(whatever type of,family,friends blah blah blah),
they become the strong.

Sometimes when you are too strong,you tend to settle thing by yourself as you are able to. Thus, as time goes by,people around you tend to think you do not need any help.
Whereas if you are more dependent, people tend to look out for you more and thus, whenever if you are in trouble, helps flocks from all around.

Sometimes, even though we are able to solve our own problems, we just want others to show us concern to let us know that they are there for us.

I think this is what my friend wants judging from what he wrote on his blog.(no,its not alvin or kelvin)

p/s:feeling a bit moody yesterday,so on the journey home,came up with these on the bus after reading one of my friend's post.And I am not writing in a smooth flow again.well well,if you can understand,good,if no,then like that loh.

Busy busy busy,the whole school is busy including me.I printing stuff as I type.
Brought a new phone on saturday,it is a 3g phone but I can't make 3g call.why leh?Because the engineer at nokia cock up,I suppose to go down to any nokia care center to fix my phone(actually just to let them update the firmware) but I just cant find time to do so,not at least until after next monday...


P/s:I want to make video call so guys,pls change to 3g phone leh.
waiting for 881 ost 2.

The lion roams,
looking for its rightful mistress
one who will make it yield,
forsake its noblity and most importantly,
its fragile pride,
and to serve, until the end of eternity...

Suddenly,the world seems to be so quiet,
and so still...
Everything is still moving,
the earth is still revolving,
but what the great beast feels,
is nothing and everything...

p/s:first time writing such stuff.ok,I just wrote for fun.

Still struggling with my proposal...think too long didnt take very "arty" modules so lost ability to crap. So just wrote some stuff to recharge the thing inside my skull, aka brain.

Waiting and waiting

I now spend everyday waiting cause the new album of FIR and the 2rd OST of 881 would be out this week and I don't have any idea when is it. But on the other hand,I want time to move as slowly as possible cause I want to get more stuff done.Kind of contradicting.

I don't know why but all the guys in school that I know and meet recently don't really study or want to.

And I wasted like 1 hr doing nothing in the canteen yesterday. wau lau,heartpain loh.

I have so many things that I want to let free from me and I really don't know how to say...craving for another latte and yes,it's official,latte is my favourite,not mocha. Also,who know how to pronounce augustus?Is there such a word?

time 4.20am

It now time 4.20am.Just finally building my MG strike freedom.spent the last 4 hrs putting on the limbs armour.think it should be the longest yet that I took to build a gundam. Need to keep my mind away from irrelevant thoughts...I never told anyone before but I could never sleep on friday night since I don't know when...

For some reason,I cant log in to my old blog so I decided to restart everything...