IPPT

I finally passed my IPPT again. You may asked, what is the big deal, man? But for a 80 plus kg guy like me, who did not play any sports until like 20 years old, it is a big deal to me.

However, mindef shows no sign of record of this and I have to call them to retifcy this issue. Oh man...

Friends

What are friends? - I heard some peoepl said before that friends are people for you to make use of when you needs help, when you have too much time on your hands?

For me, friends are people who would accompany on life's journey, through the harsh reality of the world, the sweetness and bitterness of life's unpredictable event, to provide comfort when one's heart and soul are in discomfort. While I am not a good or best friend to all, I always strive to be as loyal as I can be, provide as much help as I can whenever possible and accompany each and everyone through life's many ups and down.

I always tried to give in whenever possible but fails to do so on many occassion especially to many of my closest friends.

As this year comes to an end, I lament about how much things have changed. I might have lost two good and wonderful friends or did I not? I do not know. One would not talk to me anymore and the other treat me like a cold stranger. Perhaps they have their own difficulties or worries, perhaps they are just being normal and I am too sensitive but I know that things have definitely changed...

Early in the morning 6.45am

It have been so long that I have woke up so early and choose not to fall back to sleep again. The last 3 days has been terrible. Runny nose, body feeling warm and cold at the same time and on Thursday, I have been hiccuping on and off even until today, in fact, it was my hiccuping in my sleep that woke me up.

This morning however is special. As I lie in my bed thinking of buster optimus prime and if I should add it into my ever-growing population of toys, I started thinking of my childhood. Back then, I did not have any transformer toy except for those fake one. And recently when I brought my first big sized optimus prime, it was like a dream come true to me. But, I have learn that man's desire cannot ever be satisfied.

As I now sitting in front of my dad, watching him eating his breakfast, I wanted to cry. I have now grown up and he, old. I watched him in his prime of his youth when he was in his 20s to his late 40s now. I still can remember the time where he would run with me when I was just 6, the time when I accidentally kicked my slipper into the canal and he went to climb down the canal to help me retrieve it. The time where I left my favourite cap in the mrt(never wore a cap since then), the time where he brought a bicycle for me. We were very poor then and a bicycle which costs $50 was really a big deal for the family. I only have my own bed when I entered primary 1, that explains my reluctance to change my bed. I just simply could not bear to throw away a bed that have already accompany for so many years.

I would be going for my first overseas trip next week and frankly speaking, I wished that my family could go too.

Soft

I have became soft recently. No, it not soft as those uncle in their 50+ who are putting up a good front but is becoming soft in term of my personality. I have became very wary of stepping on people toes and am way too sensitive. I am so scared that people might be offended by what I have to say and I think that I am becoming someone which is not me and more like a person who have been staying at home for the past 20 years without any contact with the society. This is certainty not good.

On the bright side, I having my long weekend now with a bearable amount to work to do leisurely. How nice is that?

Chain combos

I do not know why but NIE like to torture people by lumping all the assignments due dates together...Finally, Transformer 2 dvd is out and it costs 44.90, wtf. So expensive, but I just cannot resisted digging out my card to pay for it in NETS.
Recently, I been toying with the idea of getting a card even though I most probably don't need one. But if you don't get you never need, right? And after you got it, you will use it, correct or not? I typing in Singlish, damn it. Recently, I been having problem with this. Sometimes, I can write coherently in good english and sometiems, I just cannot. So weird. Anyway, I got 3 assignments due next week. How exciting is that?

Doing work in front of my Gundams

I love to do work on my sturdy desk. Reason? As I look up, I will see my beloved Gundams all standing in front of me, Wing Gundam ver ka, force Impulse, justice, Saviour, Kyrios, Virtue, Freedoms, Double 0 and so on.
Really feeling hungry after a night of work.Especially after seeing the photos of HR's trip to bangkok. All the Street side hawker food. Especially the sotong balls. Drool...
Doing work make me feels good. Give me the feeling that I have accomplished something. Wasn't going to blog but I just want to blog a little, to tell that special someone who is sleeping now how I feel right now. Feel so sorry that I couldn't have mroe time for her because of my assignments. Hope she can see this. :)

Working on weekend is sooo wrong

Life is now clogged full with assignments and my throat is not getting any better from eating the durian mooncake that I brought.
Feeling very bad lately. I have not much time for Miss huang and my friends. I have to keep rejecting their invitations and stuff. But hey, I basically like watching tv and doing work at the same time everyday. I just to need the TV for company when I am doinh work now. And the school Blackboard is still down.Haiz..
Lesson learnt, more planning, less procastination.

ICT

Still struck for my Maths ICT worksheet design. I find it hard to use ICT to teach maths in a non-conventional type of way. Hope I can unclog my brain soon.

P/s: Really craving for some comfort food now, especially mcspicy. I could not even remember when was the last time I ate it already loh.

HTS

HTS=hard to save. Something I realised after I started working. Whe you start earning more, you would really spend more and saving really depends a lot of 3 different factors.
1.How is your spending habits?
2.Is there any sudden events that require you to "dig" out your saving?
3.How strong is your determination?
So people, please plan your finance cause we are not yoing anymore and soon, we would need to buy some real big ticket items.

Monday 21st Stepember

finally, will have my own trip overseas after 25 years. First time I stepped out of Singapore when I was in primary 6. The whole family went on a trip to the then uncompleted Genting Highland.
I woke up this morning feeling weird. We going to book the trip later but as I was brushing my teeth, I thought to myself," life is so full of uncertainy." I have never ever imagained tht my first trip overseas would be with my girlfriend. I thought it would be Tony and the others. Although, tony is also going with us and his sister too.

When I was talking to my mum just now over breakfast, she told me about how dad make her lose face again in public. Dad can be the most annoying person when you trying to talk thing out with him. He is of no reason. Totally nonsensical and a whole load of rubbish. Pissing everybody off with his dumber then moron kind of remarks. The thing is, we just trying to make him quit smoking and he will always rebuke with things like, "If I don't smoke, my heart will beat very fast."

As a Leo, I am like my mum, I hate to be embarrassed in public. I can be nice to you or even give in to you. But, if you ever shout at me, or embarrass me in front of many many people, then we get really really really PISSED.

p/s: Had to go bath now, just got a mission to deliver shoes.

Engibberish day

Today in my "communication skill" lesson today, we learn about phonetics. It was a funny sight, me being a clown cause I knwo absolutely nuts about it. all the Tsks, burr.. etc weird sound and noises. Feel like killing myself. My confidence in class seems to be slowly coming back now.
There is a chinese saying that when you " 习武不练功,到头一场空". I think that really best describe my plight. I speaks too much mandarin at the expense of my spoken english. I have lose the use of it and I am now trying to find it back once more.
I now realise that it is actually hrad to blog everyday. Haha.

p/s: My throat seems to be getting better but the throat still feels a bit "thick". And I can't wait for it to fully recover so that I can eat Laksa.

Long weeks ahead

Had a maths today and finally hand in my ICT individual essay. Thought I could finally take a breather but oops...

Haha, I had to admit NIE is not that Siong but the assignments seems to come in waves. That the hard part about NIE, I guess. Had a real lousy dinner. Thought going to have dim sum but end up eating economic bee hoon. Everytime, I pass by that stall, it would have a very long queue so I thought I would try it out today.

Turns out there is only two possibilites.
1. the food is really really not nice.
2. our taste buds are constructed differently from the other people living in pioneer.

p/s: Went to watch 9 last night. I think overall, the story, the atmosphere of the scene in it was really really nice just that it wasn't so action packed.

Monday

Suddenly, all the due date for the assignments start to come in wave by wave. NIE is not really that tedious but the assignments date seems to be very close to each other.

Brought a camera last saturday. My first camera. So funny that after I brought it,I do not have a good place to keep it and have to actually hide it in my wardrobe. This is to prevent the little xiao mei mei in my house from finding it and playing with it. Mum says that it like the camera jian bu de guang.

My camera is Samsung ST550. The design is pretty(typical samsung product). Hope that I can test shot it soon.

Gundam and family

Went back to Gundam Expo today again. It feels like a farewell trip actually where I am actually going to just have one last look at the expo before they tear down the whole thing on sunday. So many gundams, so many love. I grew to like the simple but majestic design of the Unicorn gundam. Unicorn is a bit squarish to me actually but I like it.
Biggest regret was that I couldnt get hold of MG destiny gundam Expo clear edition. At least I brought Chrome 1/144 HG Exia and 1/144 Gundam RX78-2 30th edition. I saw the last box of clear 00 raiser there. I almost brought it together with 1/144 HG Arios and Archer but in the end I decided against it. So paiseh, when I went up to them and told them, " Sorry but I think I want to cancel my order." There were many reason for this.
1. All my gundams from the year 2001 onwards are scale 1/100 ones. So when I finsih building my Chrome 1/144 HG exia, it feels weird seeing such a small gundam.
2. Clear 1/144 HG OO raiser does not have GN sword III and I already have a scale 1/100 OO raiser already.
3. Clear Arios and his lover's Archer is a bit overpriced if you compared it with OO raiser. Normal Arios is only $26 and the clear Arios and Archer set actually costs $58. OO raiser normal edition is $38 and the clear version is actually....$38.
4. I shouldn't just buy kits just because they are Expo limited items. Its like I just buying for the sake of doing so.
5. I only have my eyes on MG destiny clear version. And the other one that I really want now is actually Exia Ignition mode( I brought the normal one last month so I cannnot bear to buy another one). I don't understand why I am so bend on saving that $25. Oh, I remember, I overspend last month adn its was nead the end of the pay month when I went to buy the kit. Must remember to spend wisely from now on. (irony is that my day was actually in a few hours after I brought the kit). Haiz, I was telling my brother that this will be one of the regrets in my life.
6. I am trying to save money. Somehow, in 5 years time, I hope to be able to buy a Flat of my own and get married. And a 4 room flat now cost $300k. And I am still deep in debts with 2 months of pay in my pocket.

Talking of money, it is funny that some of my friends think that just because I started working, I should change my lifestyle. Dine more often in "fake" resturant where they charge you at double the price just because they are a "resturant".
Some think that I save too much. Funny that there is such a thing call "save too much" because most of the time, we save too little. They also think that I am being hard on myself eating in dirty places, having cheap food and don't know how to enjoy myself. The fact is, I don't feel that way. I agreed that dining in resturant is pleasant. There is air-con, you are being served(at xx++) and so on. But the fact is, my view towards money havn't really change that much. I don't mind splurging on a good meal on my love ones but sometime, I think it is really unneccesary to spend so much when just eating with friends for just a meal after badminton or normal meet-ups. And I don't feel that I am ill-treating myself by sticking to my old life stlye.
All these years, my family finacial status is those neither here nor there. Worse, with this recession, dad's pay drop until $1.2k. And he practically work like a dog. He reach home everyday at around 8 plus 9pm. And he start work everyday 8.30pm. He OT everyday for free cause he got a really BASTARD boss who is super super STINGY. Frankly speaking, I feel so sad sometimes that I really wanted to cry. And Dad didn't dare to quit then cause I was still in year 4. Even now, after I started work, I still do not have the ability yet to support the family. It make me feel kinda useless sometimes. I was actually quite pissed when Wangxin actually commented that I give my mum too much family allowance and I shouldn't do so. I got really pissed as I don't inderstand why he can said that.

P/s: I just finish a draft of my ICT essay and now, such a long post. Feel really good to be able to write some much at one go.

long tuesday

Was late for class today cause I couldn't get on 199. For some reason, singaporean don't know how to move to the back of the bus, prefering to stand on the front half of it. Result: people who wanted to board the bus after the interchange cannot board.

Been 3 days, and I am still itching to go down to the Gundam Expo again. Wanted sooo much to buy the clear Master grade Destiny clear version. It is so shiny and clear and pretty. Finish building the chrome exia and it was simply shiny shiny. Nice.

Talk a little bit too much today and my throat start to feel a but itchy already. Well, till tomorrow.

Stress

When you think the everyday pass by too quickly and each week too slowly, then my friend, you are under stress which is what I am currently going through. Life at NIE is not too tough or too easy, I suppose but I just can't help feeling a bit suffocated sometimes. The "failure" keep popping into my mind. I just not thinking positively and everything, the sleepy bug follow me everywhere. I would yawn like a drugless drug addict. Not having coffee doesn't help either as we all know, coffee does perk you up and more, it is an anti-depressant.
Today went by quickly too. Even though I did what I set out to do, I keep feeling that I did too little. The doctor say that it is because I am still trying to adapt to my new working lifestyle. All said, I will be more poitive and will learn to take things as it goes.

Trip to Gundam Expo

Travel all the way from Choa Chu Kang to Sengkang on saturday. First time ever, Gundam Expo is being held in Singapore. Thanks dear chu rou for accompanying me there. I think she was quite bored there.
Actually, I wasn't very excited about going there but when I reach, that is a different story already. First thing that greet me was a 2m tall 00 gundam. Whoo hoo. A lot of event exclusive was on sale there. Clear 1/144 00 raiser, kyrios and archer, chorome plated exia, clear parts Master grade Destiny. Wanted to buy MG desinty clear version as I thought it was really cheap. Normal MG exia costs about $80 after 20% off there, but the event exclusive clear Exia costs only $90. Just $10 more. End up I didn't buy as the stock only arrives on Monday, sighs.
Anyway, I brought 1/144 chrome plated exia for $36.95. Paid and after walking aroun d for a while, I couldn't resist and went back to buy Gundam RX-78-2 30th edition scale 1/144 for 1/144. Wasn't going to buy RX78-2 at first as this version cannot transform into core slpendor. But, it is a replcia of the scale 1:1 RX78-2 statue in Japaan. So, must buy right?
Dear help me ask the cashier if we can combine the two receipts in order to hit $50 to get a bandai Recycle bag and a lucky draw ticktes. So nice of her. We went to watch G-force after that. Thought it was quite boring. Action? Nope. Humor? Nope. Story? nope.

Played badminton today using my new string. I do not know if it is because I didn't sleep enough or I still not used to the string, I actually miss quite a few shots. What more, my shots were not as powerful as the old string. Must be because of the enw tension, I guess. After badminton, Wnagxin dragged me and huiru to accomapny him for dinner. Huiru and me were supposed to just accompany him but in the end we went Xing'x cafe. Spending $30 enitled us to 20% discount. So in the end, as wangxin need to reach $30. huiru and me end up ordering food too. I ate the claypot rice. There were so many chinese sausages inside that I was actually fidning it a bit too salty.

Then, I went lot 1 to meet my parents for dinner. And I ate again. 2 meals in 2 hours. Oh dear. I am going to do some sit-ups now.:p

Fast fast thursday

If you want me to describe today to you, I would use the word"blitz". I woke up at 6.30am. reach school at around 8.20am. Leave school at 11pm, reach home at 12noon. Watch Tv until 1pm then I got tired and lie on the bed and sleep all the way until 5.30pm. Half the day passed with me not knowing. HAIZ.
Anyway, got quite a few tasks done just now, watching TV and doing work at the same time.
The no-caffine routine is really killing me. I feel so tired everyday. I cannot drink coffee, cannot drink tea, cannot drink horlick nor milo. I drank instant Liang Cha in the morning, can you believe this? No milk as I cannot drink cold stuff in the morning. I vulnerable to "cold" during the morning.
Then mum ask me not to drink Liang Cha in the morning also as too much Liang Cha is not good for guys as it will make their balls big. What the heck.
Somebody, or anyone, please tell me what I can drink?

3rd day of the week is wednesday

Went to school in my sandal today because I was rushing for time..Haha, actually deep down, I would prefer to wear relaxing clothes to school everyday.

Meet tony in the late afternoon to restring my racket. Was disappointed to see limited color and types of string availiable in the shop at bradell that I always go to. There only the normal purple, blue, and worse, white. White is a color that I would never ever string. There is only one red colored string but it is a BG65 string. BG65 is 0.70 mm thick. So no way I going to use that string. What more, the uncle's father seems to be in a very bad mood, first time I saw him like that. He was always smiling, and so fatherly. I think he might still remember us the last time when wangxin really piss him off real big time. This remind me of the fishhead bee hoon stall which I went yesterday. The stall owner there really got serious attitude problem.
Anyway, after my "bu yao lian" probing, I managed to make the uncle "dig" out his all other string. In the end, I choose a black BG66 Sharp string. Wanted BG80 nanology but there is only red for that string. Weird thing is, the uncle put back all the nice colored string into the drawer hidden from sight. It is as if he did not want to sell them. So funny.
Met up with wangxin again after that at AMK hub to watch Final destination in 3D. What can I say, the 3D effects was good but the scence was absolutely gory and distasteful. CLosed my eyes for many scenes. The way the writer make the character die is really tsk tsk tsk. Wangxin seems to enjoy it a lot. I can only say that he is sick. Edmund was ok while tony feel almost like me too about this movie.
Lesson tomorrow at 8.30am, groans..

P/s: Ate my first bak choy mee with chilli and pepper. Felt a bit guilty.

Day 2 of the week

Went for my first Economics lesson today. Almost reach late. Not that I left my house late but two 199 drove past me full. Wait, they were not full but rather the people inside did not have the basic courteousy of moving in. As a result, a few fustrated nie trainees were struck at a stupid bus stop which were so near to the school but yet so far to reach.

I am the only person in the class taking mathematics as my CS2. I think my tutor wasn't quite pleased about it. She feels that Economics is something where you can relate more to our everyday life but not mathematics. I beg to differ. In my view, mathematics is like the foundation on almost everything that we have. We need mathematics for physics, engineering, accounting and so on. Even for Economics, there are a lot of mathemtaics involved, tools that can be used to prove certain theory. For example, the concept of convexity can help us explain the concept of opportuniy cost, increasing marginal return and things which is beyond my understanding. Game theory to understand how firms will react to their competitors.

Sadly, after 4 years of sturdying economics, I will still get struck at somewhere in my specialty. Many concept, theories that I am still not clear about, or discard as time goes by in my journey. I remember beiong ask by one lecturer to define "Full Employment" and it turn out that I do not know how and so does the entire class.

Anyway, my group leader is absent today again. It is so funny that two of my group member still do not know who she is or how she looks like.

A good chance to talk less

Had this sore throat for like 8months. Its was tormenting. I would wake up almost each and every morning, not by my alarm but from the pain in the throat. Apparently, during the night when I sleeps, the throat would get dry and hence, the pain.
I finally decide that I could not take it anymore and went to a private doctor last saturday. And the truth is, my throat was okay but it seems that I have damage my vocal chord from all the screaming in the KTV last year end when I would desperately scream like a rocker wannabe in the KTV imitating Shen Mu Yu Tong aka Y2J. Well, the advice for me is to talk less, speak softer and No coffee, tea or anything acidic, sour, spicy blah blah blah. The no coffee and chilli part is really killing me softly as I am typing now. Where the joy in life when I cannot eat chilli.
Worse thing is that Churou doesn't know what to do and so do I. You see, we would talk on the phone every night before we go to bed. So imagine when we were trying to converse on the phone and I wasn't allow to speak much or if not nothing? She wasn't very receptive towards this but she know that I really really need to rest my throat or rather, my vocal chord. It is a rather big dilemna for her.
I met shu ning on the way to school today and she mention to me that shu xi got it worse than me. Shu xi just woke up one fine day unable to speak. And even after her throat recover, she couldn't speak as her brain had forgotten how to do it and she had to go for some speech therapy thingy.
Had a rather quiet day in school today with just one lesson. I finally brought a new bag from some shop call Graphite in bugis junction. Yong jing say its a pote bag. I not sure but its one of those bag where you can wear it as a sling bag or you can carry the handle or slinging your arm in the handle. Hard to describe. But when mum and dad first saw it on the sunday morning in the wee hour of 7am, I could hear them discussing on if I had brought a lady's bag in my bed with half of my soul still lost in the dreamy wonderland.

P/s:I only realise that this bag is a bit too small for me. But just as well, it will force me to travel light. Maybe I should have brought the bigger version instead.

Lost and Found

Last week was really horrible. I really lost it big big time on thursday, being unreasonable and grumpy and wangxin suffer at my hands on friday. It is weird that sometimes, I can still be so childish and be actually angry at people whom I don't really know.
I lodged a complaint about a taxi uncle who actually cheated my cab fare on saturday, but my heart went soft yesterday. What if he lost his job? I hope I did the right thing in withdrawing my complaint.
Badminton yesterday was fun with some new people that I just met. First time in a long while badminton feels really fun again. The touch of the grip in my hand, the nice sound of my string hitting the shuttlecocks and some well-executed smashes, plus all the drop-shots. I have gotten so used to my friends' playing style, thus it was refreshing to see some uncertainty on the courts. They are not as strong as edmund and maybe even wangxin's and I bet that wangxin and me can already give them a run for their money in doubles but playing with them is really enjoyable.
Had dinner with dear in the night. We order quite a lot and I ended up eating most of the food, even her share. She said it was because her appetite had grew smaller already but I figure it was because she had a late and very full lunch at 2.30pm. Haha.

Last week was really horrible. I really lost it big big time on thursday, being unreasonable and grumpy and wangxin suffer at my hands on friday. It is weird that sometimes, I can still be so childish and be actually angry at people whom I don't really know.
I lodged a complaint about a taxi uncle who actually cheated my cab fare on saturday, but my heart went soft yesterday. What if he lost his job? I hope I did the right thing in withdrawing my complaint.
Badminton yesterday was fun with some new people that I just met. First time in a long while badminton feels really fun again. The touch of the grip in my hand, the nice sound of my string hitting the shuttlecocks and some well-executed smashes, plus all the drop-shots. I have gotten so used to my friends' playing style, thus it was refreshing to see some uncertainty on the courts. They are not as strong as edmund and maybe even wangxin's and I bet that wangxin and me can already give them a run for their money in doubles but playing with them is really enjoyable.
Had dinner with dear in the night. We order quite a lot and I ended up eating most of the food, even her share. She said it was because her appetite had grew smaller already but I figure it was because she had a late and very full lunch at 2.30pm. Haha.

Today is the start of my Enhanced School Experience. Its feel kind of weird actually for various reasons. First of all, I had been through the Teaching Internship Program which is very similar to the ESE. Then, my ESE is at Pioneer Junior College, the place where I spent two years of my teenage youth at. I saw Mr Khoo today, my economics teacher for Year 2. Perhaps, JC year 2 is the time where my academic result was at its peak, not a very high peak but my economics result were at a all time high due to Mr Khoo's teaching and due to my MCP ego trying to win, in terms of economics result, the then girl of my life.

As I walk around the day, I came upon my batch's photo. So many memories came to me as I scan though the list looking for my class in search of my yesterday. And as I am now typing this, I realise that I did not look out for her in the groups of 2001-2002 pionner batch memory lane.

It is also sad to see that only Mr khoo and my PE teacher for JC1 remains in the new campus. And if there is only three teachers I can thank, they are my Pri one teacher, Mdm Kamaliya, My Pri 6 teacher, Miss low, and Mr khoo.


I hope that I can teach well and remains as who I am years from now. And if there is ever one day if I am going to leave teaching, I hope it is because I wish to have new challenges and not because I got sick of it.

I finally couldnt resist the temptation to buy 00 raiser anymore so chong down to sunshine plaza...Funny as it is, I saw a OTAKU couple on the train when I was on the way there..It make me think of why some people can like anime soo sooo much and me, gundam. Perhaps, if I can choose again, I would become a full plegded OTAKU.

Somehow, the world for them seems simpler and easier for them...And they do not seems to care about what other perceive of them.

Ok, I am not in my very right state of mind now.

Today mark the end of my education line. Not official but it is to some extend. I already 24 but sometimes, I just feel that what I had in me is never enough for me to deal with what life wants for me.
30 minutes ago, I realised I always lived a blessed life. I had a very healthy growing up experience. Life was calm but sweet with the occassional sorrow. My parents always protect me, set up a good example, impose good value morals into me. And so blessed I am that all my friends are pure, innocent honest and good folks. Or rather, I have choosen these to be my friends. Perhaps, all these causes me to become detach from reality.
I am a judgemental person. I like to judge people on what they do or even they did, strictly sticking to my sets of code of conduct.
I seldom stray, make mistakes,because I always weight the consequences dearly even the times during when I was a teenager. I dislike betraying people trust, especially thhose of my parents. Beleiveing all being to be responsible and innocent. Unknowingly, I had transformed myself into the almighty angel looking up from the sky, aloft from the cruel world of reality.
I expect people close to me to be like me.
But who am I to do so?
who am I to have expectations from others?
Who am I is to give value judgement on what right or wrong?
Who am I to decree that people should live a life burden by responsibility, weigh by value judgement like little old childish me?

I am the Lion, fearless to give whatever to whoever I hold dear, ruling over all that is around me and protecting all that is dearest and closest to my deep and honest heart.
Forgotten do I that the Lion is just an animal, noble as he is, divine he is not, with no control over time and space, past, future and others outside his realm. But, so strong and intense is his will to undo the wrongs he sees but so weak and feeble is his power to do all the right he wishes.
With his unforgiving heart that is as fiery as fire, while compassionately soft like water. It is unknown if one day, the fire will overrun the water or the water will overcome the fire.
Oh dearest all, I plead, give me the strength and the weapon to overcomes the bad in the heart, give me the hope and love to be forgiving. My fangs are for defence and my mane for hugs. Forgive me if I have ever bitten you and hug me around my mane so that I know that I am forgiven and loved by you.

New chapter, new beginning and you complete my life.

We met at the end of 2008 and begin at the beginning of 2009. And I would never have imagine that a decision to go out to meet some new people would totally change my life.

I have long forgotten what it is like to be so happy, really really happy and to have a sense of responsibilty to someone. No words in the human language can translate the feeling of joy that I have everytime I receive her messages, the serenity I have when strolling with her, the warmth I have when we hug, the passion when we erhmmmmm.

Oh, the joy of knowing that everyday, every hour, every minute, every second, that there is someone who thinks of you constantly.
And the bitter sweetness of me thinking of her constantly every second, every minute, every hour, everyday.

On the way back after my jog after 2 months, I suddenly realised that I no longer wish for anything more. Everything is perfect, in place and beautiful. It is complete. Finally, I found the one girl who complete my life and can give light to my life.

She is not perfect but I do not crave for perfection. To be perfect is to be inhuman. That is why I never chase for perfection. It is because of imperfection that we find things beautiful and worth dying for. It is because of imperfection that we can constantly improve. It is because of imperfection that we can learn to live, to forgive and to really love one and other.